confusion

I've never felt like this before. I've never known someone who's died, I mean, not someone who was young and attractive and funny and had a great voice.

It's hard to fathom I'll never see her again. I mean, we weren't close, but I always figured I'd run into her again, maybe at the Jigger Shop or Friendly's where we'd ask each other how college is going or at church where I'd hear her sing.

Not just gone. I never figured she'd be gone.